It's hard for me to explain how I feel about his leaving. Inside I feel torn into pieces.
One piece is overflowing with pride for his willingness to serve our country.
One piece is screaming because I'll be missing my partner in crime, my main squeeze, my rock.
One piece is scared because I don't want the responsibility of raising our kids solo over the next year.
One piece is totally 100% JEALOUS for the experience Trent's going to have and things he'll see.
One piece is anxious for this process to begin.
One piece is nervous for this process to begin.
One piece is just sad.
and the last piece is full of love.
We're now 1 month in and we're OK. The kids are starting to settle in and I feel like we're beginning to hit our stride. Anyway, this post is getting a little heavy, which is uncomfortable territory for me! Here are a few pics we took while on a walk the day before we took Trent to the airport.
6 comments:
When you posted about Trent leaving earlier this year, all I could think about was my Grandma. Her husband was away from her for a couple of years during WWII. She gave birth to her second child all on her own and I am sure spent countless hours worrying about him and wishing he was closer.
I am sure there will be many long days while Trent is gone and that you will all miss him lots! Sometimes just knowing that others have made it to the other side of where you are is comforting (at least it helps me some days!)
I LOVE the pictures of your last day together!
Millie,
Thanks alot for posting. We have been praying for you guys and wondering how you are doing. Keep posting so we can keep up with you. Maybe Trent should post too, about what it is like there!
Anyway, our thoughts and prayers are with you. Enjoy autumn time!
Amyjoy
So sad. Miss you guys!! I loved the pictures though. Call me anytime!!
Wow, Milly! My heart goes out to you. No doubt that this year won't be easy - we'll keep you in our prayers. Just think 1 month down already. Hopefully the rest will pass super fast. Good luck & love you!
Millie, how well I can relate to you.
Lawrence was gone for 6 months in 2009 and we are on month 6 this year, is it over yet?? He was gone a lot in 2007 and 2008 but I gave up counting...its just depressing.
Deployments are definitely a learning experience. Their is a whole cycle to deployments and although I didn't think it would apply to me, I hit every stage right on time, every time.
Good luck to you and the kids. If you need someone to talk to who understands "Navy Wife" lingo and deployment stress, never hesitate to call. I listen as well as I complain (which is a lot during long deployments)! ;o)
Wow-this post just made me cry! Our prayers are with you guys in Wisconsin and Trent out on the ocean! Be strong-time will hopefully go by fast!
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